Homeless - 16

Greetings,

Well, I spent 90 minutes working out today hoping to sweat some poisons out that I ingested over the weekend and I think I achieved some success.

I added another slab of metal to most of my weight exercises. I was doing 3 sets of 15 repetitions each on most of the exercises and it was starting to take too long. Now, I'm at 3 sets of 6 - 8 repetitions each. And, encouraged by visual manifestations of my abs, I added 3 other ab exercises to my current one that consists of just 60 crunches: 25 leg raises for the lower abs, performing a bridge for 2 minutes (goal is for five minutes) and the plank for the right and left side abs. In addition, weather permitting, at least twice a week I walk to the library which is a round trip of over 10 kilometers so I'm getting some aerobics in during the week.

Over the past few weeks, I've been keeping track of the approximate number of calories that I ingest on a daily basis. I started that because of sensations of craving that I was experiencing and I didn't know where they were physical or psychological in nature. It's like I'm continually evaluating myself to determine what is going on. Some of the cravings may be due to significant decreases in alcohol and tobacco use, some may be due to the fact that my calorie intake is around 1000 - 1300 units daily (don't count previous weekend!) and I have no doubt that some of those cravings are psychological in nature because of a reduction in human interaction.

Oh well...nobody said that the beginning of a new life has to be easy. I just hope that I don't snap and go on a rampage that would lay waste to this section of the planet. After all, I have all my stuff stored in this area.

I'm looking forward to tomorrow: early morning hot tub, swim a few laps, clean up/shave/moisturize, don clean tank top/shorts, walk to the library to check email accounts for responses to my inquires to jobs (weather permitting; been raining more than usual here in the Dallas area). I don't know if I mentioned this to you but utilizing my education, years of experience in several industries and the skills that I have honed in the harsh environment of corporate arenas, I applied for the positions of a pizza delivery person and as a pet sitter.

Yeah, I know. What the hell...I probably not qualified for those but thought I would give it a shot.

By the way, I was just joking about the 'rampage' part (in case the FBI is reading this). At this time I haven't succumbed to what I consider to be some of the greatest enemies of humanity: hopelessness, apathy, despair and fear. And I hope I can keep saying that when I have nothing else to lose.

Till next time.